The Obesity Puzzle

Hmmm. I wonder if we are ready to face the truth of obesity (or any mental or physical illness). I began my struggle with obesity as a child. My family ate processed and fast foods and we watched a lot of television and didn't get proper exercise, sure. I also have mental illness issues. The fibromyalgia started in my 30's. There are numerous other issues, I won't go on. (Could it be that my body is polluted and not working resourcefully?)

As I have been untangling the problems and working on my own wellness as a 51-year-old woman, I have found it to be complicated and confused with controversies about what is nutritious and what isn't (and lots of judgments about me as a person… whew… I am saying).

What is nutritious? How do we feed the body, mind, spirit so it can be well? There is not enough uncomplicated clear information and ease of nutrition in our lives.

Currently nutrition is extremely complicated and worse yet, every idea has its controversies. Yes, there are things we 'should' be doing or 'shouldn't' be doing, but even that takes on impossible application when the body is reacting to its environment by devouring whatever it has at its disposal in search of what it needs... because the thinking mind is confused or unable to figure it out and provide it.

I research the internet around 15-20 hours a week about nutrition, clean water, supplements, etc.; working on my own wellness. I started detoxing my body on Jan 1, 2010 (this time… it has always been difficult and I have never 'made it all the way through'). I have lost a few pounds and am gaining strength and overcoming some of the debilitating side effects of the fibromyalgia. I am even able to write this missive in a clear and concise way (I am having less confusion in my mind).

Could it be that we are poisoned by our water, food and air? Could it be that the extra pounds so many are dealing with is a way for the body to store the poisons the body can't process out? Hmmm.

Who is in a position to provide uncomplicated clear information and ease of nutrition in our lives? That is what we all need. The sad fact is… everyone trying to make money from his/her own claims muddies the subject up. Hmmm.

(I have observed that the majority of the folks who (for most of their lives) have stayed close to the earth (and organic) and minimized processed foods seem to be the healthiest of us all.)

Ideas for Your Consideration:

- THE ZEITGEIST MOVEMENT -

OBSERVATIONS AND RESPONSES

Activist Orientation Guide

www.thezeitgeistmovement.com

This is an excerpt from a longer free document you can find at: http://www.thevenusproject.com/images/stories/thezeitgeistmovement.pdf.

 

 

• Our world is dominated by the practice of Monetary Economics (aka, the "Monetary System"). Based on this system, the 'value' of a good or service is generally defined by the availability (degree of scarcity) of the resources required, along with the amount/type of human labor involved in the production/service. Based on this value theory, if goods and services could be produced with no human labor, coupled with resources that were in complete abundance, the value (price tag) would be zero, hence not having a monetary value at all. If such a situation were to occur, perhaps with the use of automation for labor and chemical processes to find substitutions for scarce resources, the entire financial/profit system would have no true basis and could not exist.
  

 

• A driving undercurrent of the marketplace is scarcity. Industry at large wants scarcity, for it increases demand. This reality creates an immediate disregard for the environment/human concern and reinforces abusive methods that work to limit production capacity and resource availability, rather than expand it for the greater good. Therefore, abundance is impossible. Also, the currency in the system is deliberately made scarce by the central banks, forcing humans to battle each other on a daily basis, with there never being enough to go around, perpetuating poverty and class stratification.
  

 

• The Monetary System requires 'cyclical consumption', or constant turnover in the marketplace. This translates into a natural propensity/need to create inferior products that break down quickly, for if very long lasting, durable and sustainable products were created, the market would suffer, for less people would have a need to repair or re-purchase a product. This leads to high levels of multiplicity, waste and pollution. If products in society were actually designed to last long periods of time, through the use of the best known materials and methods, the monetary system could not exist, for it can only work when constant financial "input" is generated by purchases.
  

 

• The most important issue for a human being is survival, and in a Monetary System this inherent self-interest translates into the constant pursuit of 'Profit'. This mentality has proven to cause far more problems than benefits for society, for social concern is always second to monetary gain. If industry truly 'cared' about society, putting the welfare and best interests of people as the first priority, the monetary system would not work , for the entire orientation of the structure requires "differential advantage". In other words, 'equality' and 'fairness' have no place in a system where the entire basis of survival has to do with competition. Of course, advocates of the system will tell you that the system creates "incentive", but this incentive is really the incentive for monetary gain and nothing more. Meaningful contributions to society in this system are a chance byproduct, not the initial intent. Financial corruption is also always constant, with many forms simply accepted as "the way it is" and legal. Concurrently, War is the ultimate form of economic stimulus and this makes death and destruction a positive thing for those who are in commercial/political positions to benefit from it. War is in fact wanted by industry, regardless of its inhumanity. Given this reality, war will likely never go away as long as the profit system is in place, while human behavior itself will always have an abusive propensity, due to the need to gain advantage over each other for survival.
  

 

• The Human Value System is largely a product of the environment. The influence of the Monetary System, in both the ruthless mentalities it necessitates for gain, along with the distorted values created by advertising agencies to condition people into buying something, has created a culture of vain, selfish, aggressive and insecure people. Vanity, Ego, Jealousy and Greed are all byproducts of the system and when it comes to the 'promotion' of sales, the end result is more important than the means. Likewise, the competitive, self-interest oriented motivation inherent in the pursuit of profit creates a general disregard for the well being of others, perpetuating inclinations for abuse and advantage.
  

 

• Money used in the world today is Fiat and is usually regulated by the Central Banks. In the United States, the Federal Reserve (its central bank) manipulates interest rates in order to control the expansion and contraction of the money supply. Debts generated by loans (remember that money comes into existence from loans; hence money is created out of debt) are exaggerated by the use of interest, for the money to pay back the interest charged on the loan is never respectfully created in the money supply. Therefore, when the money supply is expanded, typically creating "economic growth" (new money being put to use), a proportionate amount of debt is created as well, forcing people to submit to employment to afford the debt obligation. Since the interest + principle of the outstanding loans will always exceed the available money supply, this aspect constitutes nothing less than a form of economic slavery, for it is virtually impossible for the collective public to ever get out of debt. Also, the term 'Economic Growth' is actually nonsense, for all expansive growth is temporary and must be counter balanced by contraction. The only reason more jobs are created is because more money is in circulation.

The Power of the Observation-Intention Dance

Here I am in a time (ha ha) where it looks like all the doors have closed. (We are just becoming aware that all the windows are open.) We are all sorts of freaking out and trying to keep our insane minds busy because, dude, look at all this bad shit scary end of humanity type stories out there. Armageddon, for Christ's Sake. What is up with the death wish self-fulfilling prophesying shit? Or the story about some people are better than others and will be saved, while others just what?, disappear? Suffer more? (This is incredible brain/mind assumptions that are surfacing. I am strong enough to observe without making a story out of it. I am strong enough to just 'observe' without likes or dislikes. OMG, this is powerful.) I have been a Christian since age 5. I know the stories very well. Because of my stress disordered brain chemical electrical impulse impaired reactions I am seriously fucked. Yep. That was one of the old stories. Hmmm. How utterly interesting. Hmmm.

I am busting unbelief thoughts in the moment.

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I am hearing some fear echoes. The ego hasn't let go completely. It keeps hiding from me and sneaking in from lots of different directions. This is so interesting to me. I am so curious about all this emoting in the brain/mind. It clings to its pain. So the thoughts and focus are outta whack here for the resourcefulness I am looking for here in myself (ha ha). Hmmm. Hmmm.

Maybe I am being too hard on Sandra. I do expect a lot of letting go all the time. She is kind of pissed about giving up likes, but she understands that the beauty is the dislikes are gone too and how grateful-waves hit her concerning this beauty. Ahhh, the beauty of letting go of ego is this… everyone is falling all over themselves to help each other, and once more, (what if we make that an intention?) everyone is falling all over themselves to help each other. The wave of Oneness we are experiencing causes us to become the Age of Cooperativity. Ultimate Joy is holding on to your neighbors hand and helping them have everything they need as they do the same for you.

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Our power grows exponentially every time we add one more. Stop and say that last sentence several times to yourself, until you get the intensity of it, which is the new perspective skill you need to understand and experience what I am experiencing.

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From my talk with Jill: What a wonderful time to be alive, and how great is her job anyway? She gets to talk to people like me who are immerging. We are gathering like Deepak Chopra talks about. This gives me a powerful image to send to my brain/mind. I am imaging what it would be like to be a part of that gathering. The imagining cells.

We are using our imaginations to tell better stories here in the now. We have been given all this energy and now that we are in the moment, we know how to use it in the most resourceful way for the benefit of every part of the whole.

For every human part, every earth part and every spirit part we give it all and we are taken care of, every need, all of us.

This is possible in my imagination so it is possible for the whole.

This is manifesting in the hearts of everyone all at once.

It is as if this energy is welling up from the very earth orb. This is the dream of Oneness waking up and winking at us. It is like a worldwideduh.moment.yeah. This is the beautiful story I am telling. We wake up and turn to the other to embrace ourselves. This story causes peace, not-judgment, curiosity, friendliness, cooperation and the end of not-health.

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I observe that I am overcome by the mind sometimes but I am becoming the one who is never overcome by the mind anymore. Yes, I observe and I intend. These are dance partners in my brain/mind and in my spirit. Observation and intension are the perfect team of resourcefulness; This is a skill anyone can develop.

I developed it while I powerfully intended myself all the way to homelessness. Ha ha. Oops. So, what I am saying here is that if you have messed everything up pretty bad so far… take heart… once you get that turned in a better direction… you will be glad for your intensity and energy levels skills.

Learning to generate and regulate energy is a powerful skill that most of us foul-ups have perfected. We just need to tell many more resourceful stories. Hmmm.

The only thing I need to 'do' is watch my thoughts, by being the observer self, and then tell a more resourceful for the Oneness, story. The beauty is, without judgment and by being the true observer… this makes that resourceful story coming directly out of the mouth of god and all the beautiful stories that are coming from it. Ha ha, ha. The powerfully bad intenders unite and become the powerfully resourceful intenders. Why not? That which has confounded now clarifies. We have been sensing these energies and now we are understanding them.

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When I speak words aloud about how not resourceful my circumstances are I am giving those stories power. When I turn away from these stories about how it is and how I just don't like (or do like) how it is, then I am taking away their power and this causes them to disappear. The intention is the (re)direction of this newly released power.

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What I do like, hmmm, it gives me Joy when everyone and everything is cared for. I am telling a story about that. Everyone and everything is cared for. I am telling the story about how everyone is telling the stories of Everyone and Everything is cared for. We are seeing reality, worldwide, the grass roots most of us, and that is causing all manner of loving stories happening.

I intend clarity at any given moment.

Living in the moment is clarity.

I am the peace to the degree that I am clear.

I am intending ultimate, perfect clarity.

I have the power to make this happen.

I am certain.

My faith is ultimate. I am 'allowing all that' in my life.

I believe this is the rapture talked about in my dear Christianity and Jesus is giving it to us still. I have been raptured, the rapture is happening. This is not arrogance. This is the ultimate humility and faithfulness to god. I am speaking what is. I see the power available to me and I am wielding it with faithfulness to the details of resourcefulness to everyone and everything. Ultimate Resourcefulness means everyone and everything has all that is needed to be healthy, wealthy and wise, ahhh, the beauty. Can you see it? Can you imagine this?

Can you suspend judgment and imagine this with me?

I Get What I Focus On.

David Gikandi says in his book A Happy Pocket Full of Money,

"Thinking And Speaking: The instructions of and for life is closely related to 'images are thoughts'. Just as life is images of the mind expressed, it is also thoughts of the mind expressed. In other words, life is the mind expressed. Your external reality is the densest part of your mind, without any separation. The separation between you and your outside world is illusionary.

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Life is your mind expressed. The outer world is the densest part of yourself; it is an extension of your mind. When you finally stop believing in the illusion of separation, your power will rise dramatically. But even now, you may still change your mind to change your world. Eventually, the illusion of separation will fall off totally, and you will have mastered this. But even now, just knowing this is empowering.

This chapter is a course in how to think in ways that are friendly to the universe and its laws, ways that co-create the universe itself purposefully into one that you wish to live in and not one that you find yourself in. Ok, let us dive into the mind. Your world is the densest part of your mind...

Life is your thoughts, expressed. Let us paraphrase what we learnt about images over here. Life, The Source, uses your thoughts as the instructions by which to create your reality in the material world. Life expresses your thoughts into physical reality. To express is to make known, to state, articulate, communicate, convey. The force of Life makes known your thoughts to yourself and everyone else by forming them into experiences and objects that can be experienced, here in the physical world. You experience your own thoughts first hand, your images of your mind, so that you may know which ones are suitable and which ones are not. That is how you know yourself, and how you experience yourself, and that is how you grow. The world is designed to enable you to experience your Self. It is designed to enable you to experience an idea and its effects and consequences.

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Your state of wealth externally is an extension and testament of your state of wealth internally. How clear and certain you are in thoughts of wealth is evidenced externally.

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Life does not select which thoughts to express and which ones not to. How would it choose for you? It therefore expresses all of them to the extent that you have them and believe them. You have true free will. This free will is truly free because of the fact that all of it is acted upon without filtering or favoring. Free will is truly free because of the fact that it actually gets results all the time, not just some of the time, and it gets them exactly.

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To the extent that your thoughts are not conscious, deliberate and focused in any topic of life, you will be affected by the outcome of the thoughts of other people. And to the extent that your thoughts are clear, focused and non-contradictory, your results will be sped up. A few people are able to perform what many people would call miracles simply by thinking only one way and strongly about a thing. The idea that the outcome of their intention may not happen as they wish it to happen does not even occur to them for a split moment.

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Suffering is always the result of an error in thinking. It is an indication of being out of harmony with the laws of the universe. The only purpose behind the existence of suffering is to show a person when a thought is in error and alert them of the existence of a higher thought that would serve them better. Suffering stops as soon as that higher way is found, that higher thought. In the presence of suffering, try not to resist. Instead, examine with an open mind, and the answer will always show itself to you without fail.

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Concentration gives thoughts more power and speed in achieving goals.

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Your dreams, thoughts and visions will build your world. You will rise and fall with the rising and falling of your thoughts.

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Repetition breeds integration and internalization. To attain wisdom, read this material repeatedly and think in the right way over and over again. Through repetition, things are embedded into your subconscious. They cross over and become you.

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You can predict the future by looking at the thoughts, words and actions of today, and applying the law of cause and effect to them.

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You are never denied answers to your questions. Whatever questions you ask believingly and earnestly will be answered exactly. No more and no less. If you earnestly and believingly seek and ask how to earn one million dollars, the universe will conspire to bring you the knowledge, tools, people and events to give you that answer. If you ask how to earn a billion dollars, you will also get answers worthy of that amount. Einstein was not born a mathematical and physics genius. He simply asked the right questions, believingly. You see, the universe works by perfect law that never once errs nor favors particular people. Once you understand the universe's deeply complex yet simple rules that are perfectly balanced, you cannot fail to succeed predictably. Whenever you see chaos and unpredictability in the universe, you are simply seeing something that you do not yet understand, but something that is organized and predictable by certain laws. Nothing is difficult for The Source, God. And perfection and balance is the nature of The Source. Hence, all laws are applied equally, universally and unfailingly. Ask the right questions, believingly and earnestly.

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Be specific and do not keep changing your mind. All thoughts count and produce results. Changing your mind all the time 'confuses' the universe. Imagine walking into a travel agency and saying, 'I wish to travel'. Then you look at the agent blankly. He or she would be ready to make your reservation, but they cannot until you tell them where you wish to go. Imagine you now say, 'Well, I'd like to go to Moscow and Timbuktu, at the same time'. Again, the agent cannot fulfill that request. Now imagine you say, 'OK, then book me to Moscow. No, wait, Timbuktu. No, wait, Moscow. No, wait; I am not sure I can afford it. No, I can. No, maybe I don't wish to go there or travel at all.' This is how many people think all day. And the universe is 'confused' by their thoughts, just like the travel agent is, and it therefore produces 'confused' results for them.

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Whatever you put your attention to gets energy from you and grows. Remove the attention and it dies. Be conscious and deliberate in this. Intension goes along with attention. What you intend and give attention to begins to become."

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This text was extracted from the book A Happy Pocket Full of Money written by David Gikandi. He gave me permission to quote him.

 

I am Looking Away From the Suffering

I am trying to describe what is happening to me. I think something like this is happening to many, many of us… somewhere along the way… everyone.

Yes. We only need to tell a story. I think we can all agree on this one story. Peace is Now, followed by everyone loving each other. What is so hard about that? Yes. Yes. Forgiveness and non-judgment, then. It all is and, please, look away from what you don't want, and look directly upon the beauty of what you do want. That is how this beautiful thing that is happening happens. We all just need to focus on the beauty in our lives. So, whatever is now… is sacred. Every response is more resourceful than the last. We can assimilate all the kinds. Everyone is welcome to this perspective… because we are all one thing. This is the time of the great Oneness wave that hits humanity just in time to save it story.

I am causing things to get more resourceful by being more resourceful, which denotes observing thought and making a decision (intending). I decide what is happening in my life by where I put my focus. My thoughts construct my reality and I am finally aware of that. I am no longer on autopilot, prone to the insanity of the brain/mind. Hmmm. Hmmm. The brain/mind still is what it is, but I see it clearly now with my New Perspective and I am growing more and more resourceful and curious and friendly in all my observations and intentions. I have a new way to handle what happens in my life. I am modulated more and more. I am peeking at all my likes and dislikes and they are disappearing. And it feels like Gratefulness Waves keep happening. I am experiencing clarity. The beauty is in every moment. Yes, every single moment and no matter what the circumstances. The ebb and the flow are even peaceful. I have no need of hurry. I can make a plan.

Look away from the circumstances. I focus on how beautiful everything is and I feel this energy that I call gratefulness and it comes in waves and the new stories are beginning to happen. Enough people became enlightened and that caused me to happen. Now I am causing it. That's how it happens.

I think the people of Earth have finally suffered enough. Heavy Sigh. We all found a way to suffer. Every human being has suffered. Have you ever met anyone who didn't suffer? So, great, we are all very good at it too, it's all we see all around us, all I have ever seen my whole life, until recently. The dawning of the new perspective or awareness or other dimension or software patch on my brain…is here. Boom.

What do we do with that? We connect to our power and we join hands and we intend peace is here, now, by just 'being' the peace. There is nothing to stop us from seeing and directing our own thoughts, here in the moment the cat is alive and out of the bag. I am not alone. There are many who are waking up and shaking their selves off and looking around and realizing, hello, I could have had a V-8.

I intend the end of suffering by shutting off my focus on it in as many forms as possible. We need to think about how easy it is to catch our thoughts and make our intentions. In fact, that is a wonderful intention. I intend that observing my actual thoughts and then intending with friendliness and curiosity just comes naturally and is always the kindest and most resourceful responses. I just need to turn my focus on it. I am keeping my focus in the Now more and more. Anyhow, this whole process is happening unconsciously, without resourceful results, and not just for the mentally ill. When a person gets to looking, it looks like the whole world is mentally ill, and that seems to need our focus. How can we make something be better if we don't focus on it? Focusing on what we do want seems counter-intuitive for some reason.

We have to simplify this. We get more of what we are focused on. If you could just stop and chew on that last sentence and see what your awareness tells you (it feels sort of like a physical feeling, like energy) and wonder about all that? Hmmm. No decisions, yeah. Don't let the brain/mind tell stories or show home films. Hmmm. Just wondering and being curious are the most incredible gifts to get to the New Perspective or Brain Patch. Stop judging and replace it with wondering and wonderment and you are there. Be the all-not-knowingness so you can experience the new knowingness. Letting go of the ego self is so beautiful. That is peace happening and I see peace happening. I decide it and then I see it. That's how it works here. There are more and more people making this leap. It is growing exponentially. I am so excited. Ha ha.

What causes suffering? For me it's been brain/mind reactions; emoting, the whole gamut of emotions from good ones to bad ones and I was seriously attached to the intensity. In the past, this brain/mind was very focused on sickness in my life. I made a list of attributes of my physical health that I am imaging today as a response in the moment to not focusing on the fear of not being able to get well, no matter how hard I tried. Ha ha. This is a story I am changing. Now I image myself as vital, smaller weight and incredibly feisty. I am imaging myself as energetic and active as a 20 year old. (Yeah, I am seeing the arguments, too, but… ahhh the beauty. I just give all that energy to love and the flow.)

Observing the intensity by clearing the emotions out where ever my attention lands is causing some wonderful feelings of love, peace, joy… and the intensity is there, but it isn't stuck anymore; it flows. Hmmm. I am imaging the details of my flowingness, my nowness. There is no worry or fear sucking up all my energy here in the moment. Is-ness is freedom from fear and it is so possible to be the is-ness. I would compare this to the rapture happening that is talked about in the Bible. This is the rapture, except no one can be denied entrance to the Oneness.

Ahhh. I am a work in progress and I am making real progress. I am at peace. All I can see is beauty. I am aware of the circumstances but they don't matter unless I focus on them and then, in the not so resourceful way. When I look away from the suffering, that is the beginning of the not suffering growing stronger and stronger (happening).

 

Covering ‘All That’ With Unconditional Love

Let's just cover 'all that' in love, friendly, curious, focused, thoughtful, meaningful, unconditional love.

'All that' is all the suffering of the world. Personally, the suffering was good for me. It was an incredible gift that has deepened me. I developed survival skills, and some are:

• I can wait contentedly as I intend.
  
• I can see my needs clearly and be grateful and satisfied when they are met… (this is the end of greed… I am so excited about that…)
  
• And energized by the excesses of bountiful abundance…
  
• Loving the whole is my most important desiring.
  

Nevertheless, the power boost is that I 'let go' of it then.  It makes each moment a lot more interesting.  I don't have to stress, worry, or fear. The outcome of anything is not up to me, I can intend toward it as I live in the moment.  There is no 'value judgment' because there only is 'what is'.  I don't like or dislike.  It is not necessary for the enjoyment of life to 'like' anything.  Beauty fills me with Joy and that is all there is.   There is nothing I can do to stop this beauty from happening.  That is Beauty. I can't mess it up!  I am remade; I am awake, alive and clear.

Today is.

Cool. I can write. I can write, I can sing (ha ha), and I can show up today. I got started on my Physical Therapy and I liked the woman a lot. This brain is emoting. Yes, I am having to deal with that. Thank Bob the brain is not the boss. Whew. I can just breath into the pain and chill into delta brain waves and I can handle the emoting. Ahhh, yes this is such a gift to be able to do this. I am prostrated in gratitude. That's the only way I know how to say the depth of this gratitude. (Breathing breathing breathing, sipping green tea with barley greens) I am detoxifying this physical body that poisoned itself over a period of 50 years. My brain/mind ran amok trying to keep up with a very complex reality here. The brain was never a device of decision-making capacity. Ha ha. The bipolar brain adds some flavor, as well. The earth is not flat. Hmmm. It is a huge decision in the human brain/mind to stay with 'its knowing' or letting go into the 'new knowing'.

This letting go place is a good place to be I am finding out. The earth is round… ahhh multi-dimensional. The dimensions the quantum sciences love to debate are here. The new awareness opens me up to new ways of loving and communicating with each other. Where I live, there is a culture here. I feel like I discovered them. There are the wonderful Mennonite folks who have made me a part of their family and pray for me. Living here has given me a heart for peace. 'Peace is here'. I guess that's where I get that.

I accidently ended up in the peaceful peoples nest and I made a fairly strong intention toward peace and I'll be damned if this didn't end up healing the mental illness, or made a path of understanding between it (the brain/mind) and the new way of perceiving.

The energy I used to use up 'liking this' and 'not liking that' is getting used in more resourceful activity. I am okay with whatever is. I need that energy so having likes and dislikes has been suspended, maybe permanently. This is all very interesting to me. Hmmm.

Whatever is.

I am telling a story about getting through the mental and physical pain as my intentions are happening. I am going to get 'Physical Therapy' (appt. set)… ha ha, I am making it to that. This body is healing and using a lot of nutrients. It needs my help with knowledge from being in the moment. I make my (new perspective) decisions from that moment. Hmmm.

I am intending with faith and certainty and a feeling of utter clarity. The boundaries of time and space are gone. I am on my path and the way opens… I sit here at my desk, a disabled individual and I believe and move forward as the body allows and as the spirit allows. (I am Healing because I believed it into happening instead of 'it's going to happen' say 'it's happening'.) For the first time in my life I know what I need and I have automatic motivation to do it. 'That' is who I am.

I need to do Physical Therapy, I will succeed from this effort (without undue pain). I have been here a long time. My goal of starting in the just right place has finally arrived. This is the idea that makes this real in this moment and not just a possibility in the next moment (I am making this decision now by Intending). This intention causes great healing. This is an awesome construct to build in this moment as a gift to myself in the next moment. I am learning this physical routine and I am keeping it and it is growing as one of my favorite hobbies. I love to stretch and move. Learning new ways to move my body is resourceful (this is happening because I am actively thinking and constructing a more resourceful way to be if I love the whole as a part of me, earth, people, universe and whatever, I am doing this as a gift to the whole. I desire healing and peace and I am watching and changing my ways so they align with all that as a gift to myself, actually everyone.)

So, I intend that every moment arrive as a gift. And I sit with that intention. I ponder it and let it motivate me or demotivate me. If it motivates me I do it. This way the energy is automatically in power because the energy is the motivation. I keep freeing more power here at the power station (unit Sandra). Then I send it on here to the place that gets things 'done'. Ha ha, ha. There is no stress involved with this. It is living in beauty and it is a pure breath of absolute confidence in what is in control of unit Sandra. She requires maintenance, care, energy. She is the power station I have to maintain with love, kindness, appreciation of the beauty in each moment. O how incredibly lucky and confident I feel. This is wonderful, all I have to do is find this and feel it in every moment.

The healing wave of gratitude washes through this body.

I am throwing in with these folks:

http://www.nonviolentcommunication.com/ NVC

and,

http://www.anhglobal.org/ Alliance of the New Humanity

I am taking 4 different 'courses' currently, there are 2 that get most of my energy for study and 2 sidelines. I am not writing as much. People seem to be finding my writing like a blast of something or something. Ha ha. I am just figuring things out as I go just like all the other parts of the whole.

This blog satisfy's my need to share the details, it feels like what I am called to do, in hopes that some person could use it to generate more ideas in her/is own life.

My Contribution: Personal Growth

I want to tell a story of Personal Growth. It is not only possible, it is happening. (First step, I stayed in bed for a while and started working on my thoughts. What else did I have to do? I had the not-leaving-the-house-scenario down pat. My mental illness supplied me with incredible amounts of pain… huge vats… I used to visualize. Hmmm. My body hurt every movement. Come to find out I had a vitamin D deficiency for 10 years or more. Fixing that helped a lot. Now I am practicing putting the pain down and stepping away from it, ha ha.) I am stepping up to health and health consciousness by watching Sandra and investigating/intending more healthy ways of being, eating, and supplementing. While I am at it I am recording what I observe/intend. Writing all this is healing me and I am hoping it can help heal others, as well.

I like this 'dealing' with pain and not 'feeling' it so much. It's not exactly gone but it's leaving in new ways every day (its fluidity allows it to flow on through this body of 99% space) and the stretching opens up more space, as does the breathing. I do stretches all day. I breath deeply twice every 5 minutes. I respirate resourcefully. I keep learning more stretches on the senior citizen YouTube videos. I can apply these stretches each 5 to 10 minutes. I can detox and write and move. When I catch myself slumped over… I stretch for 40 to 60 seconds, both sides of my back and then settle into good posture. I do this every time I catch myself slouching. This happens on average 3 times an hour at the computer. I am intending that Falling into a slump causes the Resourceful behavior. Slouching stops the energy flow in my body. Trapped energy is not resourceful, I have observed its destructiveness (violence).

I am moved to tears so easily, like before, only now they are all about inexpressible Joy. The brain/mind is a slow poke. Now, Joy is the definition of Mania. It used to be disaster. The energy is manageable in this new place I live and play. I no longer have to medicate control over the energy.

I am noticing echoes. They feel strong (almost as strong as the emotions they come from). They are in my brain/mind and I can physically 'feel' them in my body. They are not real. They are the dying gasps of the old way (egoic mind). I spent some time with the echoes today. Writing about them brings the feeling close. I don't want to spend a lot of time on this story. It is not as important as the Wellness that is happening to me. Hmmm. I hear you, fears, I know you are there. I do not want to hear your words distinctly, however, because that is the path of non-resourcefulness. I see things differently now. Fear is gone.

Emotions, you have always been so incredibly important to me. You have been my messengers… how will I let you go? Hmmm. Don't throw the baby out with the bathwater. Can I redefine what you mean in my life? You are skills and I don't want to let you go. I can redefine your energy. Yes. Emotions, I have heard you well. I understand now that the brain/mind is to keep me updated on the physical world, without having to make all those judgments about what is 'good' or 'bad'. I have released incredible energy and the directive force in my life is ultimately Resourceful. All I need to do is watch my thoughts and resourcefully intend with clarity, faith, and certainty.

All I have ever done in this incredible 50 years is give. The energy is coming back multiplied by about a gazillion times. (Sure, I contributed to suffering, but I seriously overpaid that debt.) I had a savings account all this time that I was totally unaware of. And I fed it everything I had… I never met someone as easy to get what is in my pocket or in my abilities. I love to give. There is just nothing better. Giving is my wings. It looked like a serious defect in the old way, but it is the highest goal in this new way.

All I need to do is watch my thoughts and resourcefully intend with clarity, faith, and certainty. Yep, that's it. The doing will then happen. Yes, this was difficult for me in the past. I understand those fears. I think the NVC is working in my conversations with myself, making them more resourceful. ( That is very interesting. I am extremely interested in NVC. This is great.)

I was looking at a website to start my own business today. That's all very interesting and it starts the echoes all a echoing. These echoes seemed to have a fair amount of energy within them. Now, I am releasing that energy from the (non-existent fear) echoes. I need it. Thank you very much! This is total loss of ego/self.

I just observed myself grimacing in pain when I reached across my desk chair to pick something up and the grimace turned into a smile and a feeling of Joy ( I felt Joy because I noticed the grimace). That is an interesting construct. I can react to the pain like it feels good. This construct will lead to the death of debilitating physical pain in this body. I can refuse to let pain destroy my life. I can live with or without it. This is the ultimate not judging something good or bad. Its existence in my life changes nothing.

I still live in the moment and determine what is best and healing for my body. I finally got that negative spiral stopped and turned around. I am well. I am well , is my new Resourceful story.

There is a new Font in town.

Let me say to all, "Happy Thanksgiving". I feel this velvety gentle wave of gratitude.

My daughter is home from her Junior year at college. She says I needed a new font. She says people do not take the previous font 'seriously'. Capitalizing all willy-nilly also looked down on. So I thought I was doing something great. Ha ha. I am watching the mind bitch about letting go of a (possibly unresourceful) font and willy-nilly capitalization. That is interesting.

I am feeling a fair amount of fear in my body/brain/mind today about some of my interactions with others. I am staying with it for understanding and messages. I am not identifying with, or making up a story about this fear. Well, there are stories here… about the fear and where it is coming from. It feels like the stories want me to write them down and talk about them. I do not wish to give these stories any voice because they are not Resourceful but I do wish to honor and accept what is there without making it my focus. The brain/mind wants to focus on the fears and the stories it is telling about them. I am glad that I do not live there anymore.

I focus on Resourceful thoughts. Mistakes do not matter, except in a good way… sometimes they help me see what needs to be done.

I could do things my own way and live in obscurity. That would be okay if that were what I desired to do.